Summer
It kind of sneaks up on you, summer solstice that is. Hard to always believe the days start to get shorter now. The windows in the bus stay open longer even at night sometimes. The solar system on the bus is happy with the longer days, Nowa stays up later or should I say wont go to bed as early. Which makes it hard on all of us. His 5 year old energy is fun a lot of the time but by 6 o’clock were all pretty tired.
With all the summer growth and outward energy happening I am feeling a bit stagnent. I kinda thought by now we would have had a place to park for a while and we’d be better off financially with markets and baskets selling as fast as we could make them. Not the case. I’ve put out an ad on the facebook page for Port Townsand to find us a place to park but no solid hits yet. So were parking during the day at state parks and at night finding places on the street to park the bus. All the campsites around here are booked for the summer so right now this is what we can do. Inanna has been spending the days at the library to try and get her website up and running and figure out ways to market her offerings and gifts. Slow, and not something that will generate income right away. We have no markets lined up for the rest of the summer most of them had a deadline for vendor application months ago…Even when we have done the markets the baskets do not sell usually. So I am starting to feel dis-allussioned about the whole sustainabilty of this voyage. Right now were just down to buying food and fuel. It is a rough spot for sure in this great wide passage but passage to where? We are living on the road. We have what we need, the bare bones, the day in the day out , it’s so good in some ways and so hard in others. Stress levels flucuate on a daily basis, and not using alcohol to manage it is , well a practice in almost everything. Thank God for the AA meetings i’m finding on the road. They help . I know god has a plan for us so I can lean on that most times and I know the struggle is for a reason. Perspective. I think the hardest part right now for me is wanting more for the kids. I can get by and keep on keepin’ on but sometimes I question if it needs to easier for them. Not sure. Inanna is really good at reading the vibe of the crews morale and she’ll know when it needs to shift or change. So we ‘ll keep on as a family and trust that this to shall pass. I will keep lookin for more markets and places to sell our wares, someone told me recently to go down the Oregon coast and into California and try the swap meets that happen there along Highway 101 so I’ll look into that.